divine

may i stay said he
(which way said she
like this said he
if you kiss said she

may i move said he
it is love said she)

the world spins madly on

timeless

daaaaaang

Today was my last day of vacation before I start work. I woke up at 8 a.m. to jump start my day. I made myself a blueberry smoothie and sat down to watch Cribs. Then I got ready for my day. I decided to have a little photo shoot. I had some particular ideas in which I really needed the tripod. Well, I could not find the tripod anywhere...so I called my Dad at work, but he wasn't in his classroom. So, I decided to be resourceful...I found this long tall hard plastic tube thing in my Dad's shop. It stood on its' own, and my camera rested nicely on the top...so I decided to use it! Everything was going fine, pictures were being taken, blah blah, and then...it happened...what I sort of knew would happen. The tube lost it's balance, and my camera went flying to the ground. It was broken: I knew it. The lense is all crooked, and won't close back into the camera. Well, I just know that there is no warranty for clumsy (and thoughtless) people like me. So, I called my parents and explained my situation. I told them I deserved credit for my resourcefulness, and that in all fairness I did call my Dad first to ask where the tripod was! I am now planning on going to Staples, and begging them to send it away for free, but I know it will not happen. So, in that case, I am already online looking for a new camera. Secretly, I did want a new camera this summer... so maybe this is the perfect opportunity?? Now, all I need is the money...only problem is I am in dire need of summer clothes and saving for school...hm hm hm.

Anyways, for the rest of my day I just had tea with Tash to do some planning, and then went to the gym for step class. Now I am tired, and totally looking forward to work tomorrow (I am serious; I am bored). However, before work comes a 7:45 wake up call and heading to the gym. Yipee. Bring it on.

"The ultimate truth of who you are is not I am this or I am that, but I Am."

-e.t.

Today my mom and I went to the Community Forrest and went running for an astonishing time of 44 minutes! I usually only run for 20-30 minutes, so this was a great day. It was also sunny out, and quite warm for an April day. However, the wind was blowing, and it was making me a little mad. I went outside to take some pictures, but without my Dad's tripod, I was having trouble finding places to set up my camera. Tonight I visited with my friend Christine "Bean", as I usually call her. It's nice to have another friend around common morals and values, and ideas on looove.
I only have two more days off until I am back to Dairy Queen. I think that tomorrow Lauren and I are going downtown to Winners. Other than that, I don't have a lot of set plans. I am really trying to get to bed between 11-12 each night so that I can wake up around 8 for the days that I work at 11. I would love to be able to get up at 8 and go to the gym before my shifts...however, I just know that is not going to happen.

Anyways, I am off to read more of Eckhart Tolle's words.
Sweet dreams.
xx

for whatever we lose (like a you or a me)
it's always ourselves we find in the sea

e.e. cummings

flowing words.

"Words, no matter whether they are vocalized and made into sounds or remain unspoken as thoughts, can cast an almost hypnotic spell upon you. You easily lose yourself in them, become hypnotized into implicitly believing that when you have attached a word to something, you what it is. The fact is: You don't know what it is. You have only covered up the mystery with a label. Everything, a bird, a tree, even a simple stone, and certainly a human being, is ultimately unknowable. This is because it has unfathomable depth. All we can perceive, experience, think about, is the surface layer of reality, less than the tip of an iceburg.
The quicker you are in attaching verbal or mental labels to things, people, or situations, the more shallow and lifeless your reality becomes, and the more deadened you become to reality, the miracle of life that continuously unfolds winthin and around you. In this way, cleverness may be gained, but wisdom is lost, and so are joy, love, creativity, and aliveness. They are concealed in the still gap between the perception and the interpretation. Of course we have to use words and thoughts. They have their own beauty--but do we need to become imprisoned in them?
Words reduce reality to something the human mind can grasp, which isn't very much. Language consists of five basic sounds produced by the vocal cords. They are the vowels a, e, i, o, u. The other sounds are consonants produced by air pressure: s, f, g, and so forth. Do you believe some combination of such basic sounds could ever explain who you are, or the ultimate purpose of the universe?"

-E.T.

thought processes.

"Many people are already aware of the difference between spirituality and religion. They realize that having a belief system - a set of thoughts that you regard as the absolute truth-does not make you spiritual no matter what the nature of those beliefs is. In fact, the more you make your thoughts (beliefs) into your identity, the more cut off you are from the spiritual dimension within yourself. Many "religious" people are stuck at the level. They equate truth with thought, and as they are completely identified with thought (their mind), they claim to be in sole possession of the truth in an unconscious attempt to protect their identity. They don't realize the limitations of their thought."

-E.T.

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