my life would suck without you.

shout-outs to the amazing friends and people in my life.

you know who you are.

my arms get cold in february air.

there's nothing not to like about you.

The weekend has come and gone. Onto the fourth week of semester two! I am really excited! I actually have things due this week: one was a library assignment, which I've already done, and then another is a Journal entry, which I have done. It's basically our opinions and feelings about the class, and what we think we have learned. I think it should be fairly easy, especially since we do not get graded but instead a incomplete or complete mark. I will have to do that soon! 

This weekend was good, but I was grumpy. I love seeing my family, but I get grumpy when there is not enough space in this tiny condo! Yesterday we went to look at a multiple of condos to buy. We found about two that had really great potential. Some were quite old, and creepy. But my main squeeze was one that was built in 1995, and seems to be pretty well maintained. It's really cute, and there is so much light that shines through the windows! Obviously, we were just looking and nothing is a for sure or definite. But, it was fun to get out there and look at something that is a maybe. 

Last night we went out for Chinese New Year's dinner. The food was okay...pretty western, but decent. My fortune was something about me being the centre of attention. (Obviously, but not seriously haha). After that I just watched a bit of Mean Girls with my brother, and then went to bed. I ended up picking up Lex from downtown around 1 am. My Dad, brother, and Uncle left really early this morning. I heard them a bit, but fell back to sleep until around 9:30. However, I am pretty tired tonight, and hope to have a good sleep! 

This week's upcoming updates: Lauren is staying in Vic on Friday. Chels will finally have her boy here on Thursday, and I have some actual homeworking and reading to do! I am home in like 11 days! Wahoo.

xxxooo

tictoc clocks

(So, when kiss Spring comes

we'll kiss each kiss other on kiss the kiss

lips because tic clocks toc don't make

a toctic difference

to kisskiss you and to

kiss me)

e.e. cummings

counting down.

6 days until Lauren arrives.

12 days until I go home.

20 days until Dale and I go to Hawaii.

counting down. counting down. keep counting.

words from a 17 year old vs. words from a (nearly) 21 year old.

seventeen something:

"I have the world's greatest friends. Honestly, I know the most amazing people. I like things to be simple, but I also like extravagance. I don't usually get worked up. I love taking pictures to one day to find the perfect one... but for now-I have some pretty amazing ones. I love shopping... but it always seems to make me tired. I hate feeling stuck. I am scared of a lot of things. I like days off. I like downloading a new song and listening to it over and over because it's just that good. I like songs with meaning, that you can relate to. I love colors... right now I am just infatuated with with them, and right now I really like blues and greens and turquoises. I like remixes. I love sleeping. I like when things work themselves out, and when things are always okay in the end. I don't know what I want to be when I grow up... but I'm okay with that. I love being warm. I love laughter... and I laugh a lot because it's the best thing for you. I eat chocolate all the time, but then I crave something like chips. I like seeing other people happy... because it makes me happy. I like having alone time to read and scrapbook, and I like to watch movies by myself sometimes. I don't really like real Chinese food, and I don't really like Spanish food either... too much roast beef haha. I'm on msn a lot because I like to talk. I love hearing stories from other people. I like it when people can make me laugh. I love smiles. I am proud of who I am, and I like being different. I like using 'ebonics' in my typing... because it makes things waaaay more interesting baha. I love getting text messages. I like meeting new people."

(nearly) twenty-one something:

"I have great friends, I really do. I don't have that many good friends, but that ones that stick by my side are my besties. Some of the good friends that I have had, have stepped out of my life, and probably will not be back. I really do like simplicity. I tend to get worked up over small things. Living on my own, away from my family has taught me a lot, but I still freak out and overanalyze little details. I am a worrier. I love taking pictures, but somehow... I have broken a camera, and recently lost a camera. Let's say, I'm just not that great with electronics. I've become a klutz lately. I do love shopping, especially when I actually have money to spend... it still makes me tired. I hate feeling stuck: it's the worst. I am scared of a lot of things, but new things now. I love days off. I like downloading new music, but lately I haven't been able to attach the same meaning that I used to find in songs. I like colors. But, I also like shades. I like white, black, and shades of grey. I don't mind a remixed song or too. I love sleeping; I love sleeping in; I love naps. I like when things work themselves out, but often times they do not. I like when things are okay in the end, and that there was a reason for something happening. I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up: even though I am following the path of a teacher, I am still not sure if it is the right choice. I will decide later. I like being warm: I especially like the summer sun. I love laughter, and I love anyone that can make me laugh so hard I want to pee my pants. I love chocolate, I love junk food. Too bad junk food wasn't good for you. I like Chinese food, I like Greek food, I like Japanese food, my taste buds have grown up a little bit. I never go on msn; I found it annoying that people could talk to me whenever, and start conversations ... even when we had nothing to talk about. I sometimes go on facebook chat, but hardly ever. I still love hearing stories, especially funny ones. I like smiles. I am proud of who I am; I like being half-Chinese. I never use ebonics in my typing, but I tend to extend words with extraaaa letterrrrs, and keep most of my casual typing in lower-case lettering. I like getting text messages from my boyfriend. I like love notes."

fingers intertwine

The truth to beauty is behind the heartbeat.

write me away from here.

"the friendship we have found: will make the sun jealous, the starts dance, rainbows last forever, love beyond amazing, and a promise impossible to break."

little bits of knowledge.

My Dad and Brother arrived last night. (Of course,) My Dad's luggage was left in Vancouver. He got one of the two, but the other one did not arrive until about 1:15 last night. I decided to wait up for it, but was sooo tired. 

Today, I just woke up, and me and the boys went to get some groceries. Then, we headed up to campus for a tour. The tour was pretty good, and I added in my small comments about extra things I knew. Afterwards we just went around campus a bit more. The sun was shining, and it was absolutely gorgeous out! I came home and napped a bit. Then, we had some people over for pizza and beer.

Tomorrow we are heading out around 9:30 to go look at a few places. Chinese New Year's is coming up too, so we will probably go out for some Chinese food. 

Night.

xx

new loves.

besides being cropped a little bit... they are still really pretty!

no necklace required.

It is almost nearing the end of another week of semester two! I just have Geography tonight, and then it's weekend time already! My Dad & brother arrive here tonight... and they are staying until early Sunday morning. Lauren will be here in a week tomorrow, I'll be home in two weeks today, and then Hawaii in three weeks tomorrow!! Eeps. The countdowns continue.

Last night I was thinking of what to do for Dale for Valentine's day. We will be in Hawaii, so that would be neat if we could do some cool there for that day. However, I am thinking of other things too. I woke up in another cold sweat this morning at 4 a.m. I have been having the weirdest and strangest dreams lately! Today in my Indigenous studies, we finished off this Canadian movie about the Native peoples land being destroyed by the White man using the trees for another resources. It was a pretty violent and gory movie, but I guess got the point across pretty well.

This weekend when my brother and dad are here we are going to go to UVIC for a tour for my brother, and possibly look at places for buying for next year. I love Richmond Gate, but my brother and I may live together next year (or Dale and I), and it's pretty expensive in 203! Anyways, my Dad has a realtor set up... and he/she is going to show us about 6 different places. But yes, we'll see.

Now, I am just doing some cleaning and t.v. watching. I've also been tagging all my old pictures...I have a lot of spare time at the moment! haha.

xxoo

being strange.

The sunshine is gone today. Well, it was nice while it lasted! Today I am just taking it easy, and doing some reading for Geography. Other than that, just going to step class tonight, and maybe seeing my boy. 

Yesterday, I just had my first Poli tutorial. It went okay. Seeing as I was the only one in my time slot, it was a one-on-one conversation with the TA. He asked me to switch groups, so that I can interact with more people. Greeeeat...just what I was trying to avoid. It's not that I don't mind people, it's just that I am not up to my worldly knowledge, and hate sharing my opinion when I don't have all my facts in order. haha. So, I think that I am switching to the group for the hour time slot before mine. 

Brother bear and Daddy-o are on their way tomorrow night. Saturday is Chinese New Year. 

xx

temporary (insanity) camera.

week three.

I can't believe we are on to week three of the semester already! It's going by fast so far. I have a tutorial tomorrow in polisci, and I am the only one in my group so far. This could be interesting; tomorrow I will have to spend all day studying up my Politics. Bleh. In EDCI 372 today, we watched a movie. It's pretty interesting so far. 

I applied to Safeway today. I am still searching for jobs. All that I am gaining experience in, is filling out applications haha. 

Lately it has been so warm here! I am talking no winter jacket, warm. Eeps! I am loving it. I am excited to see the boys of my family on Thursday night. As my 4 countdowns continue, I am getting more and more excited for each weekend!! I can't stop thinking about Hawaii...Dale and I are preeetty stoked for that! 

Tonight, Lex and I went to step and then we went for a swim and hot tub at the Crystal Pool. It was nice, and a really good workout. So, I'm hoping for a really good sleep. I didn't sleep well last night, after being kept up by the people downstairs. 

Anyways, I'm going to catch up on my Monday night shows.

xx

new latitudes

I am looking for a new e.e. cummings poem to call my favorite. 

I just got back from downtown with Chels. We took in the sun (all 11 degrees of it!), and it warmed out faces and bums. We walked around the harbor and then went for a latte at Starbucks. 

I got a lot of reading done for Geography today. But, I need to review my Political Science crap, as we have tutorials starting this Tuesday. 

I am still unemployed. I need a job asap. On Tuesday and Wednesday I guess I'll go hand out more resumes. Or starve. That's always an option to save on money. But, that probably wouldn't work. So, a job it is! haha. 

read & learn. get smart & get a job. get money. that's my plan. 

xx

hearts and loves.

Audrey and I have been together for quite some time now. Always an icon, I feel she is close to my heart. 

ps. I wore my heart necklace from Tiffany's to my interview yesterday. It being symbolic of Breakfast at Tiffany's (which leads to Audrey), and given to me by my most special one, I felt that it gave me some good luck! 

xx

special k

Today's thoughts: I have this nervous, itching feeling in my stomach. I can't seem to kick it. I am grumpy because I got woken up very early this morning by the guy downstairs playing his electric guitar. 

Other than that, it's sunny out again today! horray. I am just catching up on some reading now before the morning is over. I am learning out different geographical regions (sounds interesting, doesn't it? haha). It finally seems that all my classes (though different subjects) are overlapping and weaving into one another. The theme seems to be the same throughout. I finding it easier to relate classes to one another now that some things are repetitive. 

Countdown: 

My Dad and Brother will be here in 4 days.

Lauren will be here in 12 days.

I am going home in 19 days.

Hawaii in 27 days.

no sleep tonight.

I can't sleep. I can't stop thinking about all the money that I owe. I went for my job interview today, and it went really well. However, because I need to take a few weeks off in February, they don't think I should start until March. Which is quite some time away from now! So, I guess I need to keep searching. 

Tomorrow's thoughts: I have some major reading to do. It's taking me a long time to catch up! Also, Chels and I may go downtown to the harbor if it's sunny out. I think that is about it. I keep re-arranging my room. I think I have set it up now to where I have maximum space. However, when my Dad and brother come down on Thursday night, I think that I want to maybe move my bed? It's still undecided. 

Other thoughts: I can't wait until January is over. I'm sick of this month already. Except for the fact that Lauren is going to be paying me a visit... so I'm pretty excited about that!! Oh, and I can't wait to get home again. I feel like I'm looking into the future some much, that time is just passing without me really noticing the today's. But, February is always a good month. I love Valentine's Day. Dale and I haven't spent a V-day together in 3 years! So, I'm pretty excited to celebrate that, and my birthday in Hawaii. Bring on the vacation. Bring on the heat and sunshine!

cheers. xx

repeat.

This is starting to get old. My bad luck just keeps coming. Last night, I was having a great time, and all ready to dance it up at plan b. I hadn't even danced to one song yet, but I noticed that my camera was missing. I noticed within minutes, so Chels and I went to look for it, and of course... it's gone. Of course. Of course someone probably found it and stole it. I don't know how it got away from me, because one minute its in my back pocket, and the next... it's not. I was so upset. I have no money to buy a new camera. With my computer and Hawaii to pay off, I am dead broke. Even if I get a job..it's going to take months and months to save up enough to pay for mistakes, when I could be buying new things, and not just replacing old things. UGH.

Today I have my interview at Rogers. I hope I get the job...so I can start making money! The sunshine is actually shining today, and maybe that is a sign of good things to come. 

Fingers crossed.

xx

lovely to see you.

Today was a busy bee day. I had some weird dreams last night and woke up in a sweat, with tears in my eyes, and huffing for air. Besides the dreams, my boy woke me up a bit earlier than I like so he could take me home before he had to take his car into the dealership. I came home, ate waffles, and watched the real world. It's pretty good so far. Mind you, it's going to get catty and dramatic soon, but... bring it on! 

I had class from 11:30-2:30. In PoliSci we got a library research assignment. It's something that a lot of profs give out to their first year classes (yes, it's poli 101) to force their students into actually entering the library. Since I am a third year student, I have done library assignments a couple times already. However, this one was quite tedious and ended up taking me an hour and a half to look up things, only to receive a P/F grade. Anyways, so I accomplished that, and then finally headed home at 4. 

I came home, and filled my belly with some salad, talked to a few special ones on the phone, and then drifted off into a nice nap. I woke up just before my next class, got ready, and back to school I went. Dale and I had geo from 6:30 til 9:30. It was sort of interesting tonight, and we learned about different winds and climates. Our prof told us about our term project, and it sounds like we get to be pretty creative, so I'm excited for that! 

This weekend I have a ton of reading to catch up on! gah. Tomorrow I hope to gym it and watch my boy play some hockey at the ISC. Saturday is interview day. Oh! And, today I handed in my application for the Ed program! 

xoo

sleep time. 

week two.

This week is going well, and going by quickly. I can't believe it's Thursday already! I handed out resumes yesterday to four different places. I have an interview with Roger's video on Saturday evening. I am nervous about it, but sort of excited. At this point, I just need a job, so it really doesn't matter where! Lots of people are saying its a bad choice, or that it'll be boring. But, I used to think working at DQ was boring sometimes. So, I guess it all just depends. 

I went out for drinks with Chels and Nan last night. We went to the Mint. It was really good! Then, I slept over at Dale's. Now I'm just waiting for him to come back to my house (after he drops his car off at BMW), and then we have school at 11:30. I have 6 hours of classes today. bleh. 

xoooo

no. 1

you're my favorite moment, you're my saturday.

Weekends. Are. So. Good. 

Even though I only go to school twice a week, it's still nice to have 3 consecutive days off. Chels and I spent the afternoon together on Friday. We had tea at my house, and then walked to her house and visited more there. Afterwards she drove me home, and Dale and I went to dinner at Earls. It was pretty good, but I got a major stomach cramp and felt yucky. Luckily, it went away because I got dropped off at Chels' and we headed to go see Bride Wars. It was so so so good! I just loved it. 

On Saturday, I woke up and went over to Dale's. We planned out our Hawaii trip. We booked flights for February 13th-21st!! But, we are still deciding on the hotel, so we will have to book that separately. Yesterday night, Carli came over to my place and we chatted and caught up. We drank some wine. I have missed having one-on-one time with her, so it was really nice!! 

Today, Dale and I went to the gym. Then later this afternoon we headed downtown because Dale wanted to check out some workout gear. He ended up getting a few things. Tonight we are headed to the mooovies...haha third movie this week! But I can't help it! There are so many movies that are out that I want to see!!

Tomorrow is back to school. This week I have to hand out my resume that I've been working on for the past week. My brother and dad will be here in a week and a half! 

xoooooo

sweater vests.

time goes by.

Week one of semester two complete. It has been a busy one: I was adding classes, and dropping classes like no other. I am trying to avoid presentations and tutorials as much as possible (even though I'm going to have to face them one day). So, my classes for this term are: Geography 306, PoliSci 101, and Indigenous Epistemologies. So far I really like geography, and the aboriginal studies. The polisci is a bit boring and has weekly tutorials. Aboriginal studies has two class presentations, so hopefully that will go okay. 

It's already the weekend for me! Dale and I are off to the gym soon, and then I'm meeting up with Chels later for a visit. I have readings to catch up on, and resumes to pass out. Gah.

january introductions.

Back to school. Back to school. Today was the first day of semester two. I had two classes. The first one was PoliSci 101. Bleh. It seems like it might be interesting, buuuut surprise surprise, there are weekly tutorials. That pretty much ruined my day right there. I am not into tutorials. But, I guess I'll have to learn my politics and speak up! It is a first year class, so I feel pretty old being a third year student. Anyways, the prof seems pretty awesome (despite the tutorials). My next class was Indigenous Epistemologies. I love this class already. It's a pass/fail class, so there are no grades...just complete/incomplete. The prof had us sit in a circle, and we had to do introductions of where our first names originated from. We will always set up in a circle, and there is no pressure to speak. The only exception is a group presentation, but that should be okay. 

Also, I got my computer back today! It's going to take me quite some time to pay it off. It came to about $540.00 ... sooo that was an expensive step I put on it. bleh. 

Tonight...I'm going to see Chels' new place! I am sooo happy she is here. I can't waiiit for this year to get a roll on with things. 

2009 is going to be a good one.

xx

begin

I am flying back to Victoria tomorrow. I am going to be a bit sad to leave this snow-globe (even though I may return to snow as well). I have 3 of the best days since Dale has been back in town. We've been to movies, skating, and dinners with our families. The laughter has been the best part, not to forget Dale's tan! The new year is off to a great start. 

One of the besties, Chels, has now arrived in Victoria, and starting to get unpacked and settled. I've had some other visits with near and dear ones, followed with some goodbyes. Good news is: I'll be back on February 5th! So just one month, and back to my little hometown! 

This has been a great holiday! I feel like it's been just the right amount of time (minus these past 3 days just flying by) off, and I'm almost ready to begin my new semester! 

oxxxxxxx

safe travels to everyone returning home tomorrow.